Tuesday 27 April 2010

Medical tests and Dr's appointments

FIONA: WHAT ABOUT OTHER FEARS CONNECTED TO LIVING, SUCH AS ONCOLOGIST APPOINTMENTS WHICH ARE OFTEN VERY FEARFUL, PARTICULARLY IF YOU ARE EXPECTING TEST RESULTS?

GUIDES: We find this ironic, that the weight of the world is given to one person to tell you, when the reality is already within your own body. Recognise this: there is nothing that someone can tell you that you that you are not already living with. You are the truth of your health. Another that has access to equipment that can measure things, that can tell you how things stack against another, simply has insight on this issue. These people, most of them, who do this work- and who would wish to do this work? Let us think about it. Who would wish to work with people with cancer? Have compassion for the people who throughout their day may not know who they have to give their life or death diagnosis to.

You are the one who has the power. You are the one who has the power to connect to you. You are the one who inhabits the body together with the mass that you may be about to hear about. You are not separate in any way yet there is great fear about this ‘thing’ that lives in you as if it is a parasite. Really, this is the mechanism to take you to your exit. That is all it is.

If you don’t like the fact that the mechanism to take you to your exit has kicked off, connect to the opposite side, which is life. There are times in life where you are given bad news or bad life events happen to you; by ‘bad’ we mean that which you wouldn’t choose consciously. But recognise this is part of the process of learning to be a happy, healthy, balanced human being. You have many, many sayings for this: rolling with punches is one we particularly like. We like it for you can come back from punches and it can feel like a punch and you can simply roll. Why not roll from a punch? It is better than having a bleeding nose! We jest on this. Simply understand that you are in control of your health and this situation.

This person who chooses to do this for a living has an infinite capacity for the suffering of man. No joy is ever taken from giving information such as, ‘we think this is terminal’. So have understanding of self, understanding that, for whatever reason that you may or may not be aware of, the mechanism to the exit has been activated. You can do what you choose to do to take you back to life.

Remember that you have not exited yet and for as long as there is life within, you are life itself, so live. These people have no power over you and in many ways have one of the best and the worst jobs in the world; they get to explore the depth of humanity.

FIONA: YOU SAID THAT THESE DRS HAVE NO POWER OVER YOU. HOWEVER, THERE IS OFTEN A VERY STRONGLY PERCEIVED NOTION OF POWER OVER THE PATEINT, IN TERMS OF THE DRS PROGNOSIS. CAN YOU TALK ABOUT DRS VIEWS AND HOW THEY MAY OR MAY NOT BE FACTUAL?

GUIDES: The best thing about cancer is that it shouts loudest of all: wake up! There are other diagnoses such as AIDs where currently there is no wake up call that can be chosen. Their call is simply ‘wake up’ and know that you are on your way to the exit. Cancer is not known. The body, however, will present itself to a Dr at some stage of manifestation towards the exit. The closer to the exit, the more serious the words that might be used, the word ‘terminal’ might be used. This is your reality, not the Drs.

The Drs simply impart an opinion that is prevalent and from their perspective it would be insane to ignore it. This is the position of power you are asking about. From their perspective, as a profession, it would be insane to ignore a chance to recover. Their entire profession is geared up to keep you alive. So, if they believe that you may respond to a treatment they will think it is insane that you may not chose it. For they have chosen to align their lives with keeping you alive. This is the power you think of; they are on, for most of the time, your side. Yet because they give you the bad news, because the deliver the wake up call, from yourself to you, you often fail to recognise them. And you fail to recognise them as human beings.

After all, all they do is read out a piece of paper or information from a computer screen. And you trade yourself for that information. Do you wish to take this further?

FIONA: YES, WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO STAY CONNECTED TO LIVING?

GUIDES: Love the Dr. Understand that their Dr simply gives them verbal information about what is happening in them. The Dr has no power over them. So, simply love and feel compassionate for the person who has to tell you whether you are about to have a good day or a bad day, independently of you, it seems, at times. They understand their position of power and sometimes they can have a bad day.

FIONA: IF, AFTER SUCH A MEETING IF YOU DON’T FEEL IN YOUR POWER, WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO CONNECT BACK TO LIFE?

GUIDES: This will be different for every individual. What ‘life’ means to an individual is different from one to the next. What ‘life’ means to an individual at one time can be different from the next time. So there is time where the best thing in the world can feel like a summer day with a book and there is another time where the best thing in the world can be snow and a fire. Sometimes, the best thing in the world can be all of your friends, there are times when it can be none of your friends.

Connect with who you are at that time and give yourself what it is you need. Recognise though, that if you have opened the mechanism to exit, you have not been giving yourself what you need for a sustained time. So, it will not be the first chocolate bar, or holiday, or meaningful romance, or 6 kilos that you've put on that will re-establish your connection to life and disable the mechanism to the exit. There must be at least as many connections to life, at least, as there was to the mechanism that kicked off the exit. Does this make sense?

FIONA: YES

GUIDES: Many give up on this and think: I’ll do this, I’ll do this, and I’ll do this. Oh look, the Drs told me that I’m still dying. The reality is that you are dying anyway. You only have one exit. But you can be in charge of the quality of how you live while you are alive and this may be enough to disable the mechanism towards the exit.