DID I REALLY CHOOSE THIS ????

FIONA: To what extent have our souls chosen the events that unfold in our lives, e.g. trauma?

GUIDES: The system, this is the eternal part of you that is married to the temporal part of you, that will give birth and will then die, chooses its overall shape and form. Temporarily, you have been born into a life that will give you a disposition for physical, mental, emotional traits. We would also say energetic traits, although this is less well understood. We are talking roughly about genetics. These tendencies will mean that you will gather to you all of those experiences and events that will give you an opportunity to expand beyond them.

Now, the burning question: does someone choose to be born to suffer cancer? For some the answer is yes, and for others no. For those where the answer is yes, it is not cancer specifically, it is physical adversity. This can take many shapes and forms, either in illness or in trauma. Remember, for those of you who have the diagnosis of cancer and wish to heal themselves, it is about coming back to life. Moving away from a mind dominated state of being without love, appreciation of the self, without joining in the brilliance of the world and the living forces around you. Regardless of the adversity, we would say, seek at all times to join in the wondrousness around you, the harder the experience is the more difficult this is, and we know this. On some level you are capable of achieving such, even the small ones. This may not be enough to create an entire physical healing for you in this lifetime. This is nothing to be ashamed of; sometimes things are simply too tough.

It is no different from trying to run a marathon. If it doesn’t feel good, running a marathon is the biggest chore that you can imagine. If it feels great and will stretch you in a positive way then your energies, your life force, will expand towards it. Life is not to be a marathon, rather more of a journey whereby you move through experience after experience. For some of you, experience is being born into a particular family, having schooling, a first job or further education, then a career and then potentially a family. For others, there is no particular order. But this is not the nature of reality; that is the expectation of society.

Your real experience happens as you move from one moment to the next. It can seem so small and insignificant that you might not recognise the consequences of small choices that are made along the way, such as, to take time and smell the roses. Many of you were not brought up to take time to smell the roses, you were taught to pull yourself up, work harder, achieve, or you were taught to expect nothing. Therefore, you had no role model that allowed you to experience the wondrousness of life. But in the words of a great master, “Look at the lilies of the field, they do not toil”. You need not toil regardless of what is happening to you. This goes back to the question that was asked, how you can surrender with chronic pain. Regardless of your situation, accept it. It does not disconnect you from the world around you. It simply is your connection to the world around you. But it is not the only connection. You can sit with pain, you can sit with an amputated leg and you can enjoy. You can enjoy the fresh air, the breeze, sounds, sights, people, the beating of your own heart.
Have we answered the question?

FIONA: Yes.

GUIDES: We feel we will come back to this one for experience is a big one and for many of you the experience of cancer is overwhelming. Yet there are small moments of experience happening all the time, whether you have a diagnosis or you do not, whether you have a tumour growing or shrinking.